changing

with the new account, i have decided to write atleast twice a month. i don't know what will it offer me. as of now what i could visualise is; whenever i shall read the previous after 15 days i shall feel bad for the pace and the way i am changing myself while trying to survive with the situation around. while carrying the responsibility of teaching to be responsible to various people; i always get a feeling with every word of thought that i have LOT more to teach and think about for myself! i'am loosing out of time for that or may be i don't want to do that, or i'm ignoring it in order not to get even more depressed with the thought that after so much of thought giving in the end when it ll come to, i'll change myself, bend myself to float in the particular situation. and then again the same question ll haunt me that; shall i change myself? if yes whats the difference between me and others?! if i'm thinking about it, is the difference then...why the hell others are not thinking about it?! don't they feel like being themselves? may be atleast for a day or so?! or they have all togather forgotten that there is something called 'to be'; which is VERY important to a person to live as a person. otherwise the situations in life are the machines that take out similar kind of humans that have changed themselves with situation and just living a situation and not living life. am i here to live life?! or to live situation?! i don't know .....unfiortunately. but something at the back, which was till that good day on my mind; tell me that i'm here to live life. but then what do i do in those situations; they might affect my life to the extend that one day i ll find my life is totally changed instead me changeing. so that tells me now that i have a choice here to make...i want to change life? or myself...! VERY difficult!

beautiful!

"Rome was a poem pressed into service as a city." — Anatole Broyard

“we must have touched before we even met.” – eric andersen.

"I'm always making a comeback, but nobody ever tells me where I've been." — Billie Holiday

"If I shoot at the sun I may hit a star." — P.T. Barnum

"We dance round in a ring and suppose, but the secret sits in the middle and knows." — Robert Frost, "The Secret Sits" (1942)

"Pressure is something you feel when you don't know what the hell you're doing." — Peyton Manning

I don't need a dream. I have a plan." — Spike Lee

made for...

does person know what is he made for before he actually starts of his life as a developed human? or suddenly one fine day he starts realising that something is terribly going wrong with him; he's not made for what he's been doing. then what he does he drags himself into the same thing accepting it for the particular moment which he ll return to again and again in due course of his life!
do i know what i'm made for; just in case i need to make my life flow differently?!

unusual morning

There is something to be happy about; that's what i realised today and that's why opened a new blog and strted writting after ages!
It's 4.40am, i'm sitting in the office since i arrived at 9am yesterday. And all the happiess is about being learning to be able to do that; without getting frustrated which i'm genuinely not feeling today morning for a change! May be that's the way it goes; you try and try hard over the long time over not hurting yourself and suddenly one fine morning you realise you haven't done it this time like usual times; you have learn somewhere in between that time to avoid; it might be just a momentory thing; can't guess if it is or not as i don't know when did it happen!
But still there is a happiness about the fact that man learns! he funking learns any which way to live in whatever situation he's in , in whatever span of time! he simply learns to adapt to the thing! where does he remain then! everyone in the same situation are same after some time ; which should not the case and that's why this happiness hurts!